Thanks for your thoughts Punkin, WCW and Brooklyn.
My decision does not come from a place of fear or weakness. I just do not need to see the ow standing there in my place especially at a funeral.
My presence would only cause tension for all concerned. That is not the environment I want when I go in and pay my last respects. It's not what it's about.
I do not want to deal with the shock, possible questions and stares that will come from the extended family that have no idea we're not together.
I'm sure there will come a time when I have no choice about seeing H and ow together. I will try to handle it with grace and dignity. A funeral is not the already emotional venue I want to deal with it for the first time.
I am choosing to do this my way for me. After all, there is no one else concerned with my feelings, but me. I always hold my head up. This sitch was not my doing, but I'm handling it, and for the most part handling it well. I take pride in that.
