Hi SIC, sorry to hear you had such a tough time. Your post makes it seem like your W is all over the place. I really suggest you stop asking your W how she feels about you or your relationship. I know how hard that is but it's really important. First of all you will not get the answer you want right now. And second, it pushes her away.

What is the deal with your W and M? Dies your M really dislike your W?

M: 42 - W: 41 - M: 18 - T: 23 - D:16 S:14
EA - July 2010
NC w/EA - Nov 2010
Piecing - Jan 2011
I ask for div - Jan 2012
Div papers filed - Mar 2012
I move out - July 2012
Divorce final - Nov 7, 2012