I believe you will have happiness, peace, contentment and calm in the coming New Year. As we are all responsible for our own happiness, I believe you have the strength and resolve to provide all this for yourself and your family.
I pray this for all of us! Have a Blessed New Year IB!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
Happy New Year to all of you on this Board. You have all been a GODSEND - whether you posted or just read. I don't know how I would have made it through this last year without you!
I can't believe that it has almost been a year since the foundation of my life collapsed. Who can be prepared for such devastation resulting from this insidious MLC? Prior to a year ago - I had NO idea what kind of sewer existed in the minds of those afflicted.
Over the last few weeks I have found myself at a crossroad. The distractions from the holidays have provided moments of relief - but the time off has allowed me to wallow a bit too much. I have a decision to make as to how I want to live my life and what I want to provide to my kids as they transition into adulthood. I choose to reclaim a good, clean life - full of love, laughter, kindness, generosity, humility, faith, support, and peace. To choose this life means dropping the remaining threads I have been clinging to of my previous life. I will not lose another moment of life wondering, worrying, obsessing or noticing the life of my lost H. That is not my life any longer.
2011 will be MY year because I will MAKE it MY year! I am better off - whether I have believed it or not - without the toxins associated with a shattered, sick, partner.
I have SO many things I want to do that have only to do with me and the kids. I will not lose another moment of opportunity to accomplish these things this year.
Thank you again for your ever present support! Enjoy your New Year's Eve!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
IB your post sounds so positive and what jumped out at me was that you said you were choosing this wonderful future for yourself. You emerged from this trauma so strong and I find your post really uplifting. Best to you and your kids--hugs!
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying
Thanks all! Woke up this morning - clean and sober:) (I was "on-call" for S:) - gladly on-call I should say!
What is different? Nothing physically: house still a mess, still need to lose weight, bills to pay, kids to love, friends and family to love. Today, 1-1-11 - I am different! My thoughts and feelings are mine and they will no longer be poisoned by certain unnamed persons and/or events. I let go.
So...today I may clean, think, read, organize, sleep, plan, laugh, cry - doesn't matter. 1-1-11 is MINE:)
Happy New Year!!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
