Happy New Year to all of you on this Board. You have all been a GODSEND - whether you posted or just read. I don't know how I would have made it through this last year without you!

I can't believe that it has almost been a year since the foundation of my life collapsed. Who can be prepared for such devastation resulting from this insidious MLC? Prior to a year ago - I had NO idea what kind of sewer existed in the minds of those afflicted.

Over the last few weeks I have found myself at a crossroad. The distractions from the holidays have provided moments of relief - but the time off has allowed me to wallow a bit too much. I have a decision to make as to how I want to live my life and what I want to provide to my kids as they transition into adulthood. I choose to reclaim a good, clean life - full of love, laughter, kindness, generosity, humility, faith, support, and peace. To choose this life means dropping the remaining threads I have been clinging to of my previous life. I will not lose another moment of life wondering, worrying, obsessing or noticing the life of my lost H. That is not my life any longer.

2011 will be MY year because I will MAKE it MY year! I am better off - whether I have believed it or not - without the toxins associated with a shattered, sick, partner.

I have SO many things I want to do that have only to do with me and the kids. I will not lose another moment of opportunity to accomplish these things this year.

Thank you again for your ever present support! Enjoy your New Year's Eve!

M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time