i text h yesterday and told him "s could be with him for new years eve because i have to take my nephew back home today and son has to stay home". h text back" i thought s was going to pa to snowboard?" i said "no because he has to write paper for school so im going alone". he text "You are a Great Mom, ryan appreciates everything you do for him". i text " you are a good dad. you always took good care of us. Thanks for your hard work", no response. I text " thanks for working hard for ry, I am looking for my own work". Today is h bday and the day we met 32 yrs ago. I hope I ruined any plans h has with home wrecker today. This has been a difficult week for me. I went to a new psychologist last night. Its a man I dont know if i should go to a woman instead. Ive been waking up at 3 every morning and staying awake for 2 hrs. i know this is a sign of depression.
