Well, the holidays were tough for me. I put on a happy face and was so terribly busy between my house, parents, grandparents and aunts, but the whole time it felt like part of me was missing, and that's because it was. I don't think that the kids or the rest of my family noticed because I worked so hard to appear "happy" and loving the Christmas celebrations.
This is just so ridiculously difficult. The man cheated on me repeatedly. My head tells me I'm much better off without him, that I am worth more, that there must be someone out there who will treat me with more respect, but I can't help what my heart feels - and it feels like it was ripped from my chest!!
I understand the whole GAL and trust me when I say I have a life busier and fuller than 2 lives, but I think he just wants out! I don't know if my new years resolution is going to be to DB better and stronger or if it's going to be to give up and move on with my life - after all, that's what he keeps telling me to do!
M 41 H 41 D16 S 15 D 12 D 10 S 9 M 17 yrs OW Jan. 03 - May 04 S Dec. 03 - May 04 R May 04 - Apr 10 OW Apr 10 S Aug.10 ** H wants LS and D **
