Am I piecing? Just can't tell 2...

[Sad_but_happy]

I did see your post Harrier and I am happy for you. The fact that you felt her warm body close to you must have been heaven. It's like tasting food for the first time after a long time.

She gave you herself, and thats a precious gift. Never take it for granted. I know when my W gives herself to me again, I will not take it for granted ever again.

I will take your advice, and try to lose the fear. It really is all in my head. I am afraid to let her out of my sight (though I never show her that) even though she has given me EVERY reason to trust her. There is absolutly NO indication that she still sees or talks to OM. In all honesty, I believe OM is not contacting W and told her to work it out with me and that he does not want to be the cause of a family break up.

If my W knew my inner struggle I'm sure she would leave me but isn't that true of everyone here?

I'm in a weird place, not LRT, not drop the rope... She has agreed to work it out so I have to let it happen at her pace and I will starting tonight.

We even enjoyed wine and cheese last night while sitting together by a fire. And she texted me earlier today to say that she wants to do wine together tonight.

I need to breath and relax my brain and my thoughts. I'm really cool and happy at home. But once I get on these boards my mind races... So weird...