I know it's hard. I know it's tough. I had my moments too. Moving at someone else's pace is always frustrating. Things could fall apart for me tomorrow. It's good that you are keeping these thoughts mostly to yourself or on the board. For me there were many morning which I asked to myself on the way to work 'Why can't she even give me a G-D hug?" Thinking that doesn't make you a bad person, though. It's who you are.
But if I had pushed the issue with my W, I would not have had the night I had last night. My W told me that straight up. I didn't even bring up sex for the whole 9 weeks and I still won't now even thought we ML last night (Don't know if you saw my post) All the things that I was doing that I thought she didn't notice or didn't care. She noticed and she did care.
I know you aren't cocky and I know the fear, but you can't let it control.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
