"Knowing these things doesn't help my sitch and only makes me feel awful."

Stop snooping and imagining and you might not feel so awful.
Do it for you; you've got start being happy.
Be that that guy she fell in love with.
He's inside you, and maybe just maybe...
if those feelings are buried, they will surface in her.

She knows you feel like crap; that's not attractive; it's dependent.

You da man, be da man.

Me 53 XW 50
M 18 Years +2
S14 D19
Bomb 10-24-10
Served 1-27-11
Mediate 4-21-11
Civil D Final 6-2-11
No church anullment
"A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."