Eric - reading your post reminded me of my favorite quote:
No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE. No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK. And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE
Everything is about choice. I re-read Michelle's article, Forgiveness is a gift you give yourselfand the last paragraph is perfect for any of us - whether we are still standing or we are done and moving forward...
"Just keep in mind that forgiveness isn't a feeling. It is a decision. You decide that you are going to start tomorrow with a clean slate. Even if it isn't easy, you make the determination that the alternative is even harder, and that you are going to do what you must to begin creating a more positive future."
You are so positive my friend - always supporting the rest of us. Right now you need use all of that great advice you give us and listen to yourself when you start to get down and frustrated.
Happy New Year Eric!! (stress is on the Happy part!)
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12