I think i just need to ultimately get a grip on my feelings. Whenever im around her I fall apart, then i start bugging her desperately trying to get some understanding from her. I need to do better but its hard, i feel that if i begin to let go of her i really will lose her forever and then i freak out and annoy her.
Hang in there nas, it takes time.
Took me about a month get a grip on myself and even half way function with life, work and kids.
Don't get me wrong; I'm still on the rollercoaster. I have times of sadness, anger, happy; sometimes I love her, sometimes I hate her; can't stand her presence, then long to be with her - round and round it goes.
Work on yourself, do what you enjoy, even if it's just reading or watching a favorite show; vent to a close confidant or on this forum.
IT WILL GET BETTER.
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
