So, we spent another night together. After he left on Monday morning, we texted back and forth all day Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I get a little bit lonely during those long stretches during the week when I am working and we don't see each other, but I am keeping that to myself. Telling myself it's a natural feeling after being with someone day in and day out for 13 years. Plus, there is so much to enjoy about living alone.
I have a tendency to avoid my friends and family until I "feel" social and I am trying to get out of that habit and accept more invitations to hang out or go places with the people who love me. It's just good to connect with people.
Anyway, he called me up and asked if I wanted to see a movie last night. I said yes and off we went to the movies. It was nice. He opened doors for me, held hands, cuddled, etc. It's night and day to how it was when we were living together and would go out to a movie. It's nice, but also a bit weird, to have his attention. I kind of don't know what to do with it.
He came up and we talked about the movie, then we went to bed/ML. Lots of cuddling in the middle of the night, initiated by him. He used to stay on the other side of the bed and talk about how hot or uncomfortable it was to cuddle. He wakes me up last night to ask me to put my head on his shoulder. Who is this guy and what did he do with my H? How can someone change so much? It's almost unfathomable to me and I guess that is why I am treading so slowly.
We were so certain that we were meant to be together. It took us a little over a year to meet, fall in love and get married. In my heart of hearts, I do feel that we "belong" together and I would rather be married to him than to anyone else on the planet. But I plan to take my time figuring things out.
Me: 33, H: 32 M: 12 years T: 13 years No kids D-Day: 7/2009 Separated: 10/12/10 Future Unknown GITS
"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele
