I kinda let my H have it last night....through texting anyway. He come and got the kids a couple of hours last night. Wanted to know why I was in a mood. I werent trying to be, but I guess because I werent all lovey dovey with him, he sensed something was wrong. When he left, he texted me and said that he still cared. I let it out...told him if he ever cared he would have never screwed around behind my back the whole time!! He then said that he loved me and always would even though he would still get mad at me at times he would still love me. Ok, well I then I felt the need to say that I knew he was messing around with this woman he is currently with and that made me like her even less, and he just said OK. Then, lol, I asked him why on earth would he ever be interested in a woman that would screw around with married men....ok, he didnt answer because I then said nevermind....I will never get the answers I want and I ended it saying he was an a$$ for doing all of this to me, and he AGREED.

OK, probably not what I should have done, but boy did it make me feel lots better!! lol

Just trying to work through some anger and resentment towards him. I felt it last night and had to let it out on him. Didnt really care about how it made him feel at that moment.

I think what i struggle with most is him being with someone else. I hate it. I want him to be hurt by her, I want him to hurt like I have. Then I ask myself, why would I want unhappiness for him if I ever loved him? I know I love him. So why do I want him to be unhappy?

Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10