H talking D again.. after 3 mos. of piecing

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Thanks so much lost and confused. I know what you say is true. It is good to have the reassurance b/c sometimes I wonder if I am making a mistake by throwing in the towel. But I can't keep letting him treat me this way. He tries to make me sound like the bad and awful person. I feel like I have not done anything to deserve this!

Today he left and got a hotel which I am sure is so he can spend time with OW away from her kids. What pisses me off is that he left his dog at the house in his kennel this morning and never came home! He sent me a text telling me to take care of him! Why should I take care of his dog while he is off having sexual relations with this OW?! I told him I was not going to do it, but he doesn't seem to care. That was 4 hrs ago and he hasn't come home. Of course I was not going to let the dog suffer so I did take him out and feed him, but I did not tell him this. I told him I was calling animal control to come get him due to neglect and abandonment. He said go ahead! Can you believe it?!

I can't believe how irresponsible he is! I am going to call my atty about it because I don't want to do anything illegal, but we have 2 dogs and we had agreed to split them up, but if he isn't going to be here taking care of his then I want them both. When I leave on the 7th I will take them both with me.

Today he sent me a lot of texts and I was stupid and let him bait me into arguements. He knows how to push my buttons and I fall for it. I need to stop letting him get a reaction out of me. I need to stop responding period. Its like I know exactly what I need to do it is just a matter of doing it. It is so much easier said than done.

Things will be so much better for me once I am out of this state on Jan. 7th. It can not come soon enough. I have a lot of plans between now and then- getting my hair highlighted on friday and going out with friends for nye. Next week I am going to happy hour with a couple different friends as well.