Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Thanks Sandi, you are a long time friend. For so long, I really believed we were going to be a success story. But the pain and the trauma have finally caught up with me. I don't see how I could set myself up for that again. This last go around might have been the toughest. I put so much into piecing only to feel like she spit in my face and now continues to lie/marginalize things. Hurts too bad to do it again. I am very scared about telling the kids, they are of course going to be crushed. But that will happen in the next few days.

Right now, I don't have the energy to give good advice to these boards...maybe a little later on, but not right now. I have to focus on continuing to detach

I owe you a ton. You helped me to a path to try to save the M and I thought we were close, but now I realize maybe not. If she was so unwilling/unable to communicate to me that there were still problems and what she needed while appearing to be committed...then were we really close? Not sure how I could trust a reconcilliation effort in the future? That is where I am at right now. I don't believe in D, but there are not any other real options at the moment from my perspective.