On my lowest days I just feel like giving up. I feel like quitting the db, marching into a solicitors and just getting the D over and done with. I honestly some times wonder what it is I am still trying to hang on to. The less I see of him, the more lies he tells me, the more hurt he puts me through the more I try and remember why I still want to save the marriage. He is finally at his parents house and has restarted the text messages. His most recent refered to a photo hr saw of me on fb, he said I looked beautiful. Yet later when I was checking my emails (joint account) one came through confirming his reservation for a table for two at a fancy restaurant on new years eve, you can bet your ass it's not for me. Never in the ten years we were together did he ever book anything for me. What does he think he is playing at? Making suggestive comments like that after making a booking for him and his hoe? I literally don't understand how his mind works.
