Good luck to you. Another crazy part is that deep down she misses you (thus the breaking no contact). My STBXW does the same thing. One moment resentful, next very nice. It's a pattern that repeats, but I need it to stop. I need to move on for my own health.
M:39 W:37 Together: 16 years Married: 11 years Bomb: May '09 (ILYBNILWY) Moved out: Nov '09 D: 10, 8, 4