IB,

You'll get there, you will.

What you are grieving and mourning is the man your H used to be.

The man he is now is not the H you used to know, otherwise you wouldn't be missing him.

If you feel humiliated that is your choice. The only person your H truly humiliated is himself.

Go out there and hold your head up, you have much to be proud of!

I promise IB this does get better and easier.

(((Hugs)))