Sorry you are not getting to many responses. This is a very long hard journey that we are all on. You must look at yourself and try to set goals for what YOU want.
How are the homework assignments coming. You have not asked any questions about them so I hope they are clear and helping you. I know that I found a lot of peace by reading what is here.
I am also hoping that you are now out of "moderation" mode and your posts are showing up a little faster.
Keep journaling and don't be afraid to ask questions. The only bad one is the one you don't ask.