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[girlfromipanema]

Hey handsome. I sincerely appreciate your honest perspective. I know it is my decision, but my big ole' heart is too forgiving and too believing so the insight of others helps me stay balanced in the reality: I can't trust a single word he says.

My main goal today is to try to lift my mood and take care of myself. I've been unable to eat anything since yesterday - and my total food consumption for the day was a banana and a Cliff Bar. My energy is zapped and the depression/sadness/grief I feel is overwhelming. I'm not to the point of tears, but I'm afraid I won't feel relief from this gripping pain for a long time.

I realize I still have lots in my life for which to be thankful and I know I need to focus on those things but...

Hugs to you, handsomest rat.