I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! I did! I enjoyed every minute of it! Even when my H took the kids christmas eve to his family, I was ok. I visited with my grandmother for a while.
Well, to update on the affair with the married woman....funny to me. I told my H later that night that the husband to this woman had called me. H wasnt surprised, of course he was told by the man's wife that I was the one who told him and that he and I had been speaking for a couple months....wow, that is NOT so. I talked with my H about it on Christmas eve, after he brought the kids home, we put them to bed, he helped me get the gifts under that tree for them then we sat and talked. I told him that there seemed to be more to all of this. He of course gave me his side, which was very convincing, if I had believed him, but I went along with him. At first he said this was just a flirtatous R. Then I told him that I knew it was more than that for this woman to be acting this way over him. Then he admitted to doing something with her LAST year....Im sure that after that one romance...ugh, that she is all of a sudden going to freak out about the time she finds out you have a new gf...right, this has been going on for a while with them...he just wont admit it. He said her plans were to leave her H in January...now she is upset because in her mind, she was going to be with my H!! SO, now she is texting him, calling him, emailing him even after he has told her he cant talk to her anymore per request of her H. She is seriously stalking him...calling him on every phone he has, sending him these long emails, which he showed me....All I could say to him was that they needed to keep me out of it and HE needed to be careful who he messed around with!!
So that is my H's drama for the holidays....glad he is reaping some of what he has sowed....
I had a great Christmas!!I loved seeing my kids get almost everything they wanted! I am sooo blessed!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Thanks SA...wish I felt that strong. Had a little disagreement on the phone a little while ago with my H. Feeling a little bit bitter over the fact he has all the time in the world to do whatever he wants whenever he wants while I am of course taking care of his kids. I asked him to keep one night this weekend so I could have a weekend night to do something, havent had one in 3 weeks because I have had the kids every weekend. He wanted to do on Thursday night because I guess he has plans the weekend...Thursday night doesnt really help me out any...fine that he wants to spend time with the kids, but looks like Ill be needing a sitter if I want to do anything the weekend....ugh~ of course it made him feel bad, but I cant help the way he feels.
Just hit me the wrong way this morning.......But Ill keep putting on that smile and acting like Im fine.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
ok...im having a really hard time last night and today. Im ill that I asked H if he could keep the kids part of the weekend since Ive had them the past 2. Just one night, Saturday would have been fine, so I could go out and do something....well, he decided that thursday night is when he will keep them. Friday is part of the weekend so he would keep them part of Friday. OK, that helps me none! None what so ever! He wouldnt budge on it either....got plans with the gf both nights i guess.
Ugh~ it just ticked me off, so now im stuck home with the kids all weekend. ANd on top of it all, my son has his bday party on sunday, so I gotta try to sneak around and get his cake and decorate and all of that with him there. UGh!!
Just venting today, and if my H tells me to SMILE one more time IM gonna deck him!! If I am smiling it surely wont be because of him!!!!
Dealing with a little resentment today.....help
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Hey girl…sorry I have been MIA for a while. I am just getting caught up on everyone sitchs.
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ok...im having a really hard time last night and today.
It’s okay to have hard times from time to time. We all do. You know what….tomorrow is another day. So give yourself a break to feel what you are feeling today and then tomorrow CHOOSE feel differently.
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Im ill that I asked H if he could keep the kids part of the weekend since Ive had them the past 2.
F*ck him. He doesn’t want the kids. Fine he will ultimately realize what he missed out on.
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Just one night, Saturday would have been fine, so I could go out and do something....well, he decided that thursday night is when he will keep them. Friday is part of the weekend so he would keep them part of Friday. OK, that helps me none! None what so ever! He wouldnt budge on it either....
You know I struggled with how to respond to this one…..here is my idea. Once again in the interest of taking YOUR life back…..I would pack up the kids and drop them off. Period – no questions asked, none….let him figure it out. Stop trying to make everything so damn easy for him.
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got plans with the gf both nights i guess.
And you care why? Com’on Kissak. Is the issue here that he will not be with the kids OR is it really that you are pissed that he will be with GF? If the later, then honestly you need to get to a place where you just say f*ck it. Know why? Cause honestly if you sit down for a second and look at yourself, consider what type of person YOU are…well then you will realize that all of this is HIS LOSS not YOUR.
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so now im stuck home with the kids all weekend
Is staying “stuck” home all day what YOU want? If not, then change it. Either drop off the kids with a baby sitter, drop them off with daddy or figure something out. Take the frustration that you are feeling right now and apply it to a solution instead of the problem.
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my son has his bday party on Sunday
Me and mine send your son Happy Birthday wishes. I say go out and get your son a kick as* birthday gift.
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if my H tells me to SMILE one more time IM gonna deck him!!
Far be it for me to tell you NOT to do this BUT if you are gonna “deck him” can you set up a camera and upload the video to YOUTUBE
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If I am smiling it surely wont be because of him!!!!
Believe it or not…one day YOU will be smiling BECAUSE OF HIM. One day, when you finally realize the gift you have been given…you just may want to say thank you to him.
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Dealing with a little resentment today
Feel it, let it go and then pick your as* up and go figure out how you can get some time for youself.
Happy New Year!
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Eric, I am just resentful that he has all the free time he wants to do what ever he wants, when he wants...it ticks me off!
I am resentful that I am here struggling everyday to make ends meet, taking care of the kids 24/7. While he sits around letting his gf take care of him and he has all the funds to do whatever with!!
Im feeling it today thats for sure!! lol
I know HE is the one losing out! I know that! And its not so much a problem that Im stuck at home with the kids...I know WE will have fun and I will make it a nice weekend for them! It just [censored]! I will have to find a sitter if I want to do anything.
I did give him something to do...asked him to go and pick up our son's bday bike since I have the kids and no truck to put it in. He said he would try....nice.
Eric, I really am trying to get to the point where I can say the heck with him....
My mind and heart fight all the time with this. I know its his loss and NOT mine.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
DB101….if it is not working do something different. That said….
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I am just resentful that he has all the free time he wants to do what ever he wants, when he wants
I’m tellin ya girl….get the kids ready, find out when he is going to be home and then drop them off and take some time for Kissak. This would be “doing something different”.
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I am resentful that I am here struggling everyday to make ends meet, taking care of the kids 24/7.
So what ya gonna do about it?
Make end meet…..hey cut back where you can. You will be surprised at how cutting out just a few small expense can help. If your anything like me your trying so hard to keep the kids in the life that they are used to. I understand this. Just remember that YOUR kids need to see a very happy mommy…do not lose sight of this. So, what will make YOU happy?
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While he sits around letting his gf take care of him and he has all the funds to do whatever with
You a victim or a survivor? Kissak, honestly….f*ck the girlfriend. Change what you are thinking about (DB 101 “thought stop”).
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He said he would try....nice
AND if he does not do it…what are you going to do….swoop in and fix it? If so, why?
Chin up girl!
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
ERic, I would love to just pack them up and drop them off to his place...but unfortunatly he stays with the OW...and THANK GOODNESS I do NOT know where she lives!!
I have been cutting costs where I can. I try not to think of the OW any at all. Its probably a good thing that No one I know really knows her, so I never hear stuff about her good or bad...well, I did hear one thing and it was satisfying enough...heard there werent much to her....thats nice to know, but who cares right?
Trying to work on changing my thinking habits.
Oh, and i am a survivor!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
