I believe it is. You are in a place of mixed emotions especially with your Dad passing. You can't have your parents marriage...you aren't them but you can build your marriage and make it a strong and loving one.
Look at what your H is doing now, not 2 years ago. The past is something to learn from but not something to live with in the present.
Much Love, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory