I am thinking of you this morning. Since, I am so new, I think it takes awhile for my posts to be approved, but I visit your thread frequently and want to post lots!
I just wanted to tell you that I've been where you are in many ways and encourage you to allow yourself to feel your emotions completely, whether they are empathy or bitterness or anger or joy. Just sit with it and feel it down to the tips of your toes, knowing that you are completely justified in how you feel. This helped me so much. I spent many bitter nights, angry nights, lonely days and empathetic afternoons with myself and one of the great things I learned about me was that I have the ability to feel my emotions completely without doing anything about them.
Then, I thought long and hard and reasonably and logically about what I really wanted to do, how I wanted to act and what I wanted to have. Then, I acted. The future is yours, girl, with or without H.
Me: 33, H: 32 M: 12 years T: 13 years No kids D-Day: 7/2009 Separated: 10/12/10 Future Unknown GITS
"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele
