Just like most of you...

[sarahani]

Peimom-No I haven't read any of the books yet. Which one would you recommend?

Kemper-Thank you for responding I will try to break up into paragraphs next time. I agree with you on the divorce thing but I get so frustrated with him!

I've been taking such good care of myself, everyday I take time to look good for myself atleast and at times when I see him I don't think he even notices. I have seen the OW and she is a wreck!

The one thing he always brings up is that I've been "weak" in our relationship. No control over money, no daily routines, no goals, etc. I have made drastic changes in myself, I am in school now full-time and looking for a job...don't call him anymore to ask him what I should do with myself, heck I don't ever call him anymore just on some rare occasions when it had something to do with the kids.

He has mentioned to me in the past that I'm anti-social but really I wasn't I liked my close friends and when I had priorities (my kids) I would put them 1st.

He has never in the 9 years we have been married complained to me about anything wrong in our marriage. If anything he would tell all of his friends that he loved me and wouldn't change me for anyone or anything, ever!

I've stopped contacting the OW it's just pointless, I don't understand how and why she would continue to be a part of something that is so wrong in so many ways.

I'm starting to panick because I feel like I'm starting to resent him more than I love him. I guess there is a thin line between love/hate.