You nailed it PEI - at least for me. H has been the source of my self-esteem since I was 18. I thought that if HE loved me, was happy with me, liked me, desired me, was proud of me, etc. - then I was WORTH something. Now I realize that was MY sickness - just struggling to overcome it. But I do want to overcome it. I want to be at peace with myself and my life.

Antonia - we really are living parallel lives at this point! You are much more eloquent in your descriptions:) And I too am a former English teacher:)


M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time