I can related. I don't post nearly as much anymore. Things just move on a bit. Luckily this board has been more than DBing to me, the friends I've made have been awesome.

You are dealing with a lot right now. Make sure you take care of yourself. Stress does very strange things to the body and mind. Sounds like you should get checked out by a doctor.

You know as well as anyone that the bitterness and anger leeches through at unexpected moments. It's great that you feel safe enough to BE angry though. Your R is unique. It's not what it was 3 years ago, and it will never be the same as your parents', but that doesn't mean it isn't a wonderful work in progress.

I don't know if I'll ever be able to have a relationship I truly feel secure in again. Period. It has nothing to do with WHO cheated on me, lied to me, and then left me, but the fact that it happened at all.

I'm much more jealous. Much more suspicious. It is something I fight with. Even though Roger has done nothing to earn my suspicion, it's still there. Because of the past.

I had a good Christmas. (((Maria)))

The getaway sounds nice. Where are you going?

Michelle - Proud DR Rockette
S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09
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