Merry late Christmas to you all! I had a lovely time with my family and friends and did see the Black Swan. It was quite good!
Have had no contact with h since the last time I posted. I told him that I wouldn't be his chick on the side after the D and how I might believe some things he says had he not taken steps to end our M by filing D and that I deserve better than just some pretty words. I said "Congratulations on your divorce."
Haven't heard from him since. Not even on Xmas. He proposed to me on Xmas. Last night I found myself awake thinking about how he lied to me about how he'd never spoken to the random club girl again after they had sex. A lightbulb went off and it was so strange thinking how all this time he'd been in contact w/ her via FB, at minimum. He lied and said after the deed he was so disgusted w/ himself he never could speak to her again. Well thye were FB friends up until the week I told him I knew he was still in touch with her. So she either made her page private or deleted her page. Idk. I was just feeling angry that he lied and wanted so badly to write her boyf about how his girl f-cked my hub. She also had all this Christian stuff on her page about how he believes in God and etc.
For the first time today in a long time besides feeling sad, I felt straight up ANGRY. That is prob a good thing, a new emotion.
Nothing changes now. I know that. It just hurts that he lied to me that entire time. While we were getting coun selling, while he was sleeping with me the entire time, while we went overseas to celebrate our wedding anniversary, he always was in contact w/ her.
Still seeing my IC but I was wondering if I even should anymore. It's been a year now, and I do feel much better just not sure I want to shell out more $$ to keep talking about the same thing(s)/ themes. LOL.
The snow missed us but for about an inch or maybe less and this makes me very happy
I had a lovely time with my family and friends and did see the Black Swan. It was quite good! 