I will Survive.

[Shelby]

Well I am pretty sure I had a step back in my dealing with STBXH.
Christmas morning he came to the house around 9 am. So he could watch the Girls open presents...he then spent the whole day here since we were going to his Aunts house for Christmas dinner. He spent most of the time on his lap top. He helped himself to leftovers in the fridge for lunch, I made a comment how he makes himself at home.
We went to his Aunts for dinner, we all drive together in the same car. It was nice being with his Family like every other year...it was the same as always the Girls and I socializing and him in a room by himself sleeping or working.

It was the ride home where I lost my composure. I shouldn't have had that extra glass of champagne. I just got a little emotional. Started talking about things I've done on my own. The Girls start arguing in the back, so I said maybe I can leave for a night and you stay and deal with this...just got a little teary eyed.

Maybe it's all not a big deal,I just feel like it was a step back in that I was always trying to come off strong and confident in front of him and now I feel like I have to start over. Start over in proving I am handling my new situation.

Thanks for listening, Shelby.