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[girlfromipanema]

sg, I've had people tell me that in real life recently as well - just out of the blue, unless they knew about something and didn't tell me.

H is having his "closure" conversation with OW as I type. He said he was going to do it over the phone but wanted some privacy so he took a drive to call her. I'm OK with that. I don't feel overly anxious. Thoughts are running through my mind that he could potentially tell her he wants to be with her, but needs to settle things down with me.

My thoughts currently have been somewhat troubling. I'm thinking my h has a serious personality disorder rather than just getting caught up in something that spiraled out of control. I don't want to be married to a monster. I don't know how to get to the real truth.

My clothes are fitting very loosely. I think I've lost about 7 or 8 pounds this last week.

I went to the mall this morning, wanting to do something nice for myself and buy some pretty clothes. I usually love shopping, but I didn't enjoy myself as much as I would have liked. My energy is really low.