Thanks MrBond, I just get frustrated and vent on here often. I'm sure it gets frustrating to see I'm still angry and not TRULY detached. Good news is I have not contacted her or even displayed anger for 2/3 weeks now. A HUGE improvement. I took the advice to cry, vent, be angry, etc. In private or on here. Have been GAL, I go out alot! Have even stay out overnight at friends. Very relaxing and fun... Feels good to live again... I really haven't for some time.
So I worry about my babies, and my focus has been THEM first... Then ME. I am making progress on REAL detachment.
My W for the first time in forever left an actual voice mail this morning on my cell. Nothing special and I'm sure was only due to the holidays, but a very small positive change. I had previously offered W to keep kids longer on Christmas day, for kids sake mainly, so they wouldn't have to be rushed on their Christmas morning tone dropped off by me at 7am... W then declined the offer and said she would "stick to the schedule". Well this morning she left a message asking if she could keep them until 9am. I responded by email and said, whatever you'd like... 9am is ok.
