Need advice and support to keep hope

[Denver_2010]

ALMW - Man, it is tough. Actually saw my W face to face last night when I went to her mom's to drop off presents for step son. I was planning on waiting until she left, but she told her mom to tell me to go ahead and come over. I think that I drove 100 mph to their house bc I was so excited to see W and step son. It was actually a really decent meeting. I spent about 45 minutes there visiting with W and everyone. She was nice. We did have a 1 on 1 conversation which was nice. I was actually wearing some stylish new clothes at the time (following DR about always looking nice - good thing!). She asked me if I had some girl dressing me now!! At least she showed some emotion!

The downside of the meeting is that it set me back about 5 steps with detaching. I am so sad today and miss her all over again!