I am starting to grow tired of being the only one who is demonstrating committment.
And what does she need to do to "demonstrate" her committment?
Listen Pen, you push her way too much. For example, you constantly tell her you love....to get a response back. She knows what you are doing and it's a big turn-off. You are checking her temp, and that needs to stop. You went to her Christmas party pre-determining that it would be a test. Sure enough....you weren't happy b/c she did not openly show affection. Why would she do that at a party? If she had done it there and not at home, then you would have thought she was being fake and putting on a show. You reacted like a little boy.
You expect her to go back into "before the A" mode, and she's trying.....but you are putting pressure on her and that pressure will be what breaks hopes of piecing. Please top doing that. It causes the H to be unattractive.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
