Kaboom

[girlfromipanema]

I suggested to H that he leave - possibly on a temporary basis, but he says if he leaves it's for good. That he wants to be here so we can try to work on this together.

However, OW is not around and he says some days he wakes up and misses her, while other days he wakes up and is angry at her.

I'm here, so he has no chance to miss me. I've told him my feelings about this. I understand this is hard for him too.

This is very hard on me and it's unfair. My strength is disolving into questions about myself for some reason. I'm angry, sad, confused, hurt, disgusted, apathetic... the usual roller coaster of emotions.

I told him maybe he should go try to work it out with her. I don't want to be a second choice.