The different path... Continued

[Mystik]

I'm just a swirling mass of thoughts and emotions right now. I love H, I want him to come back. But at the same time, can I forgive him for everything that he's done? I know that time and distance is the best chance for reconciling at any point in time. I understand that the affair needs to run it's course before H will come out of his fog and even realize what he's done. I understand everyone's points about filing first, but at the same time don't want to do anything that will risk future chances of reconciling. I know that he needs to own his mess and be sincerely remorseful for it. Right now he doesn't even realize he has a mess to own. I'm holding on to a memory, the man I married is gone.