Well i believe she understands that she cannot come to me for help. I will not make her life easier, give her financial aid or emotional support as long as she is living with her affair partner.
What i dont get is that she tells her friends she wants to be home with her family, with me and the kids. She doesnt say that to me though. She says she doesnt know what she wants. If after 9 months of alienation from her family, spending all her time with OM, living together, his friend group etc. saying she loves things about him but she not in love with him, how can she not know what she wants? its enough to make me pull my hair out.
I will say that I sent him a message the other day as well. There is some things I need to say to him. He is a recovering crack addict, who smokes pot all day and drinks like a fish. oh and did I mention he is sleeping with my wife.
I have to say some things to him and get them off my chest. Not going to fight, but i have to look him in the eyes. I have to do this for me. I know people say its not a good idea, but after 9 months, that coward needs to hear what i have to say.
I told my w that i was contacting OM and she seemed very upset by it. She wanted to know why and I told her it was between him and me. I told her there would be no violence and i would say what i needed to say and leave. She didnt seel to like this too much.
So its time to prepare for a new year, another new chapter in my life. I need to get past the things that keep bringing me down and put them behind me.
