Snodderly and A, now do you understand why I got my hopes up? Everything H said would never happen is happening. He told me he would never step a foot in our home again, ask me out, or contact me again.
I really thought H was getting somewhere because he regrets proceeding with D and started to panic and started to be really nice to me and wanting to be with me. He even told me that he didn't realize about D in Nov. because he was so angry and thought it would still take a while to go through and that if he changed his mind he could stop or put it on hold.
My lawyer did say that he could have his lawyer write a letter to mine stating that he would like to put it on hold and that would be fine but he needs to do it before I spend anymore money on my lawyer for him to type up the proposal etc. and turn it into H's lawyer. H really thinks that it is only a meeting on the 15th but it's not. He always had learning problems. That's the date his lawyer gave to my lawyer to have a proposal in by or she was going to get a Master involved and my lawyer knows that I can't afford that. H's lawyer has no back ground on H at all like his previous lawyer did, as far as his depression and other things. She got rid of H because of the lies he was telling her. So he had to get a new one for the hearing that we had in Nov.
Sorry for going on and on and I do understand what you two girls are saying and what everyone on this board is saying but I can't help but hope, wish, and pray that this will be stopped and we can reconcile. I'm also doing the same for Christmas. I don't think H will contact me but I'm praying that he will, and I know God can make that happen and I hope he does.
Thanks for being here for me. And I hope you can understand my feelings. I will not contact him unless it gets down to the day I have to have the proposal ready, so H understands what is going on but it is bothering me. Even yesterday I got an email from verizon which I get all of the time if I make a change or something to my account so I almost didn't open it and here it was H's account.
I know he doesn't have the internet anymore, but why he gave them my email and not his sister's or anyone in his family doesn't make sense. I called them and they said he made a purchase and gave them my email as a way of contact but couldn't tell me what he purchased because I'm not authorized on his account. That's another reason why I wanted to contact him. I don't know if he did it so I would contact him or what. Totally crazy. UGH!!!
