But A, I made the same mistakes in the past as you did. We were together a year ago in Nov. and I got all excited not knowing if H was going through MLC or it was just his depression from not taking his meds, so I pushed also.
I didn't learn my lesson then either cause in March when we were together and ML H said about dating to see if it would work out I texted him the next day and asked what days were good for him cause he mentioned Sundays weren't good days for him cause of his work schedule being changed. I got the text back saying I don't think it is a good idea and I just kept asking why etc. So I know the mistakes I've made too, you aren't the only one.
That's why even though it's killing me I'm waiting and praying he will contact me since he was so lonely the last 2 Christmases and maybe we can spend some time together. But then I think maybe both of his families are mad at him and that's why he isn't contacting me. They are pushing the D and have been for the last 2 years, so I'm sure H is very confused.
He told me he didn't know what he wanted and couldn't decide but I know he is getting pressure from them. He didn't pursue the divorce until he got angry when he dropped me from his benefits and I went for spousal. The following day back in Nov. is when he was so angry because of this and his lawyer telling him he needed to proceed or he will have to pay spousal for a long time he started to proceed with it.
When H gets mad, he doesn't stop and think first. He just does, and he has always been like that and then regrets what he did.
