A and Snodderly, thank you so much for the advice. I'm not going to contact him and just hope and pray he contacts me. I don't want to be alone for Christmas so I know to keep expectations at 0 but what I wouldn't do to spend some time with H. He told me last Wed that he spent the last 2 Christmases alone and my tongue hurt so bad from biting it. I thought WTH? You had our D14 and your 2 sons. I was the one that was alone. D14 was with you and S20 went to girlfriends and I sat all by myself. So I was really thinking that H was coming out of the fog.
I might have to hit submit and make this into a couple replies since my computer is acting up and just shuts down on its own. I already typed all of this and lost it.
The reason I thought H was coming out of the fog was because he actually walked D14 right up to the door on Sat. and he has never done that. Saying to her, I just want to make sure mom is home. She told him that my car was in the driveway and if I wasn't not to worry cause S20 was home and he did it anyway. Then he said to her, watch I'm going to scare mom. And he did, I thought it was our D but it was him. He banged on the window behind the couch where I sit.
Then just enough time goes by for him to get home and he calls and asks me out. He told me time and time again that he will never come into our home again, ask me out, and will not contact me.
