Need advice and support to keep hope

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"and seemingly has not been affected or saddened by what is happening with our M"

Denver, don't waste your time on this.
If she has any feelings toward you, they're probably guilt or "justifying hostility", like "he doesn't deserve me" or something like that. The WAS will conceal anything and everything like that.

I've been told, "don't believe any of what you hear (from them) and only half of what you see." That may sound like an exagerrated generalization, but there's plenty of truth in it. Can you really trust what you see her doing or what she says?

For your own sake man, move on to doing things you enjoy, even if it's just watching football or hanging out with friends. Spend your hours as far away from wondering what your W is doing or thinking as possible. Actually, it should be the other way round, where she's spending too much time wondering herself. Now that's not the object, but it may just a be a side effect of you enjoying your life.

I know it's hard early on. I still struggle with thinking about my sitch and all the drama involved. But if you work at it, littel be little, you can do it.