NKOTB

[tpc1977]

What's really tough is the fact that I cannot see the remorse in her. At first it was there. But if it still exists she is hiding it well.

Where's my motivation to continue? How do I know what I'm doing is working? Is there a chance that she will freely give her heart back to me? The one she started giving to someone else?

I don't want to force it. I don't want her to love me because she "thinks" that's the way it should be. So I continue. Continue to try and woo her like when we first met. The times she recalls and remarks on.

It's like a bookmark. She has a chapter of my life she can remember and goes there once and a while. I used to get mad at her and tell her we have both changed. Life and time changes everything. She's not the woman she once was and I'm not the man I once was. But that's the man she fell in love with and I took him away from her. Now she's been taken away from me. And another chapter has been written.

With God, I hope to start a new chapter - a new book. Time to throw the old one away and begin again. If it's not too late. Every woman deserves a man to make her feel special - like a queen. A queen full of beauty and boldness. Yet in need of a hero. Someone to let her know that her kingdom will always be protected and full of life.

God help me show her a new kingdom.