If she comes to her senses fine, and if she files for D fine. I am prepared to deal with both in due course. My hope is the former of course, but I cannot allow myself to think of "what might happen." only whats' going on from day to day. Either way it's going to take a lot of time and patience.
It's difficult to gauge anyone in a MLC and an EA, so I'm not going to spend a whole lot of time thinking (fretting) about it.
I want to be where you are with all of this very, very soon. I feel like I have moments where I feel somewhat detached and strong, but then those moments are so easily replaced by that sick feelling and fear of losing W forever.
Had a fairly long text msg conversation with my W tonight. It was mostly negative in that she reiterated that we are finished and that she has trust issues with me that she doesn't believe could be resolved. But I did take some positive out of it in that she showed the emotion of anger when she realized that I was having a simultaneous text conversation with a friend. I didn't tell her who I was having this conversation with and she immediately became angry and asked me if it was my girlfriend. WTF! Here she is spending tons of time with OM in an EA that she claims to only be friendship and she accuses me of wrong doing without any evidence to back her up! BTW, there is no g/f. But it was at least encouraging that she still cares about the idea of me being with someone else. So she angrily said that she was going to file for divorce soon and that we could save time if I filed with her. To which, I gave her a 'dropping the rope' speech that I found on here on another threat:
"I've told you before that I still love u and still think that we an have a great life together as both a couple and a family. I have not changed my mind on that. But I understand that you are not happy, that u don't feel happy or complete inside. U need to do what will make u happy. By my side, we can be partners and will share everything and we would do anything to help one another. But that's only if we continue as a team. but I won't stand in your way, but also won't help u leave this marriage or our family. I hope that u do find happiness u r looking for. go do what u need to do. You know where I will be."
I felt like I kind of took some control back with that and let her know that I AM beginning to come to terms with her wanting a divorce. But that if she wants it, she's going to have to do the work.
Anyway, that's my update. Keep up the good work!
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
