I understand. Today I feel so numb and certainly very ambivalent. I can't even remember what I wanted to post (gory details). I can't think of questions to ask my husband.

Maybe I'm still in shock.

Maybe the Xanax is still in my blood stream. I only took one and it was late yesterday afternoon, but I haven't been eating much.


M: 37
H: 36
Married: Aug 13, 2004
Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008
Reconciled: September 2008
Current: Ambivalence