I'm with you HRT and I have only been at this for 6 weeks. The holidays make it so much worse. I'm depressed, can't eat or sleep and just want the new year to be here. I also go back and forth on just giving up. It would be easier that is for sure. Like you, I still love my wife though.
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce