Thanks all. I don't feel strong at all. I feel very exhausted and defeated. I am disappointed in myself that I don't feel stronger. I thought I could handle the holidays better than I am. I still care too much about what he is doing/thinking. I still believe all the sh*t he says about me - or at least I still think "what if".

I'm sad, lonely, and tired. Not a great place to be for my kids or for me.


M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time