I believe you know in your heart that you are not through, so dismissal of D was the right thing for you to do. If one day you decide you ARE done, you can always file again, but until that day, you are standing for your M, whatever others may tell you to do. Sometimes, from what I hear, it takes several years. But, having no regrets, however it turns out, knowing you did all you could is worth it.
When I first found about my H and ow, I was plunged into a deep depression. I had never felt like that in my life. I let everything get behind, credit cards, utilities, mortgage, life insurance, everything. I was so depressed, I could hardly keep my eyes open long enough to drive my S to school, and drive back home, I almost drove off the road once. All I did was sleep and cry, and pretend everything was all right. So, I understand how hard it is to deal with thoughts of H and ow, and still try to carry on with daily stuff. Getting a notebook to write everything down in, due dates of all bills, account numbers, passwords, amounts due, etc., is one thing that helped me to start getting back on track.
It sounds like, if your H texted you thanks when you said you hoped he felt better, that he isn't mad at you. How long ago was that? Recently? Remember, any positive communication is good. You don't hate him, do you? So, try to get a chance to begin some small communications with him, show your positive side to him.
