H's MLC - finding compassion and forgiveness

[Mila]

Thank you Antonia, Kissak & Ilike

Still didn't get any presents for H....have some ideas, but don't want to get him anything personal, or clothing, or expensive....we will see what I get....not much time left, better get it done soon lol

Ilike - if H has OW there for that dinner with D, I would be upset because that would sure be a lousy Xmas present to D...but nothing I can do...we will see.

Got an email from H that he has some business papers that he needs to give me, but doesn't want to put it in the mailbox (don't know why not), can he come over to give it to me?....I replied OK, so he came.

I had Xmas music playing in the house, baking....bit of Xmas atmosphere...invited him in because he started talking about the timing on the day we are going to see his dad. Said that he has a business luncheon on that day, so he will be rushed to get there....I said which client wants to do a luncheon so close to Xmas? H replied "you don't know them"....right...such an obvious lie, he even looked like he was lying...probably has something planned with OW....see that he still has the need to lie to me.

Then he asked me if I want him to come over on the 24th and help me to get ready for Xmas Eve dinner that I invited him for....I said NO that's OK, I'll be scrambling, bu I'll manage, just come at 7pm.

H also asked about our weekend away, told him how much fun we had with D...yup he looked like he wished that he was there with us.

I was cheerful, smiling, happy and confident...H looked down, unhappy, emotions barely contained, but managed to give me a sad smile when he was leaving...