Am I piecing? Just can't tell...

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[quote=Sad_but_happy]I look at my W and wonder what in Gods good name is keeping me with her.

I know. I ask myself why I stay with my H when he says he does not want me.But all I could say is I do love him with all my heart, I cannot think of feeling that way with another man, and I believe he will come back to me one day. I am inspired by Sandi's story, I think the same thing will apply to both men and women.

I am also on that journey of getting to be closer to my H, trying to attract him back to me. Its hard, because not only are we trying to fulfill their needs, but we also have to suppress ours. Physical touch is one of my LL's, and I find myself trying to discern his body language, trying to see if my touch is welcome or not, and as of now, I am frustrated. I think for a woman rejection is even more hurtful.

I am thankful for little changes, like over the weekend, I noticed that he was no longer clinging to the edge of the mattress. I tentativiely massaged his neck when we woke up, and he told me his lower back hurt and so I did his lower back. He was definitely more receptive to my touch this time, and this made me feel better.

We had a good day yesterday, we went to the mall and he brought me to one of his favorite stores and asked me if I wanted a coat, which was what he was thinking of giving me for Christmas!

I hope its a sign that he is slowly recovering from his depression over losing OW.