Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

Blah, what a weekend! My computer at home got a virus and has been totally weirding out, so that it is completely unfunctional! =/ My dad has been trying to work on it, but that's why I haven't been able to post this weekend.

So, this is H's first DUI, so since it was so low (just at over-the-limit level), he may be able to get them to go easy on him or reduce the charges (but i hope he does have to "pay" for it as a good lesson to him). He's seeing on lawyer on Tuesday regarding this.

It's weird, i don't know exactly what his motives are. I don't think it's the S link b/c he often comes over after S goes down to bed, which means he is there for me and only me. Maybe it's that i "take care" of him and provide him support, but often seems like more than that - like the feelings are really there. He hadn't seen me or S all week, so b/c he had to work all weekend, he invited S and me over on Saturday night to his work. We went for a bit and it was fun for the 3 of us to have dinner (it was early before the night rush). He then asked for us or just me to come back on Sunday, but I declined b/c S and I have been sick and I didn't want to go out in the rain. H ended up getting out earlish for him (11:00), so he came over to visit me instead. So I don't know. For me, I just want to get thru the holidays and if he doesn't come to me with a decision (like he originally said he would make one by year end), then I'm going to go to him and start pushing for a resolution ("if you want to continue our R - MC, if not, we'll need to start making decisions towards the other road"). It's been long enough and i know I cannot go thru another whole year in limbo. It may still all take some time, but I want to start pushing this R in some sort of directions. The current R is really not fair to me. It's getting what I want accomplished, but it's time to move foward.

Also, H is having his follow up appt with the brain dr on Wednesday, so hopefully something positive comes out of that. H is falling into some of his depression ways again - sleeping all the time, so hopefully the dr can give him some direction.

Besides that, productive weekend. Did lots of baking of banana nut bread baking to bring to my co-workers and S's teachers, got most of my christmas presents wrapped and did some cleaning!