H's MLC - finding compassion and forgiveness

[AntoniaB]

As for gifts, I did get my H a gift. I spent almost nothing--I had a gift card to Michaels craft store and the thing was on sale so it was practically free. I got him an art set with oil paints and watercolor pencils because he was saying that he was painting as his form of "therapy." I wanted to support that. He picked the gift up the last he was at the house and already said thank you but didn't open it yet. A few days later I got very angry at him (the anger has started to surface, yeah!) and then I regretted giving it to him figuring that he didn't deserve anything from me, that my kindness and acceptance and my leaving him alone were a bigger gift by far than he ever deserved! But now it's a few days later and I'm like, whatever. Too late now.

The gift thing is tough, I agree. I figured the gift I gave was meaningful but not THAT meaningful. But I seriously doubt there will be anything given next year. At this point we are severed and have no contact at all.

Well just want you to know I'm thinking of you and hope things go well with your situation this week.