just venting here to keep myself from talking to H

[grebjack]

Well, the goal I and my coach set for this two weeks was to have some pleasant phone conversations with my husband, to arrange to spend some time with him, and to not have ANY emotionally laden conversations. I've only spoken with him twice in the past week (the only times since our last confrontation at Thanksgiving - I called him in tears which is always a bad move) and both were pleasant conversations. I'm surprised he takes my calls, because he always starts sounding tense, wondering what I'm going to throw at him, but this second conversation was friendly enough that he laughed (the first I've heard that at least since August). He was telling me what he's been up to, and Saturday, when he blew off my invitation to go for a hike, he was just home blowing off steam and watching tv. And then our conversation ended when he got picked up by "a friend" to go out to dinner. I feel like my life is slipping away. Still. Thanks for listening.